OF HER, DARKNESS TAKING DIFFERENT SHAPES

~ “dive headlong into a deep pool” ~

There will be more pain, it is

assured. The longer gazing into night

above me, the more it wells up

around my body, splashing my thighs,

dripping from my hair. He looks at

me from beneath eyelids heavy

with desire, but it is not my face

he sees, rather a wave of saltwater

or winter clouds pouring across

vastness. My landscape

has no sky, no visible horizon, I am beneath

the loud sunset, that garish

world of traffic and closing doors (to which we

go back eventually, gratefully fleeing blind water

and all the edges of sleep. But I am in

no hurry.

My fingers drift the current of a stranger – a friend I love,

without needing to know everything, or

to explain.

Could as easily be darkness who shakes

my throat in one firm hand,

tongues my yearning, bitter smooth –

overflows the well from which we

together drink – like quiet he leaves

at the end of my questions. Warm as tears (internal crying)

stomach wept, lungs sobbed, each breath

gathers leave-taking over me, inks the few words

fallen between us into my skin

without care for the order of meaning – come sit

by me, don’t go

anywhere. Do you want

to sleep…I enjoy it.

– most from that fragment. There will, be assured

15 thoughts on “OF HER, DARKNESS TAKING DIFFERENT SHAPES

    1. I’m not sure why I choose to tell you this, perhaps because I do not know you, but seeing myself as beautiful still feels new and surprising. I feel I have only just begun to discover the part of myself that feels worthy of desiring and of being desired, and it frightens me a little, for it is not simple, or easy, or happy…I long for everything you describe in Angel, but a lover that powerful and sensitive is rare. Being alone seems more likely. Nonetheless, it gives me pleasure to follow your words into that dark, rich place…so thank you for that.

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